I am thankful.

Realizing that today is November 1st, I started thinking today about all the things that I am thankful for.

First, I am thankful for my beautiful, high-spirited, independent, loving, strong-willed, and own-minded 4 year old daughter. She makes my day with her laughter and her smile. She has been my life saver. If it wasn't for her and all the hard work I put in after I became her only parent to provide the best life I could, I wouldn't be as grounded or as mature as I am. I am trying my hardest to make her childhood memorable and worry-free, but sometimes, it's not easy. She taught me the meaning of unconditional love.

Second, I am thankful for my SO. Him coming into our lives was a blessing from God. With all the shiit DD and I have been through, SO was God's way of rewarding me for staying strong, and now I don't have to be as strong.  He is the most patient person that I have ever met. His imagination with DD has increased her own imagination use and it's soo wonderful to see the two of them together, bonding and creating a positive father/daughter relationship that she has missed out on with her own father. He has shown me what it is to love and to be loved, with out criticism and harsh words. He makes me whole. I am very happy to be creating a life with him.

Third, I am thankful for a loving and supporting family. Not just my own, but SO's as well. My family has been there with me through thick and thin, to listen to me as the tears are rolling down my eyes as well as the laughter coming out of my mouth. With out them and their support, I wouldn't be as sane as I am today. SO's parents met DD when she was just barely 3 and have taken her in and treated her like their own grandchild. They gave up their home for us, so we would have a place to stay with heat and a bathroom (the other option was living above the garage. They now live with Grandma and his brother is living above the garage) They helped us out when SO was out of work for 7 wks, lending us money to get what we needed.

And fourth and final, I am thankful for the few true friends that I have. I don't have many, as I have learned that some people aren't worth your time when all they strive on is drama and I don't need that in my life.
To everyone mentioned above, I would give anything for. A bullet, a shirt, a ride. I love all of these people with all my heart and they are the only ones that matter to me in this world full of chaos and fvckups.